Monday, December 31, 2007
oh i forgot to mention. i made another new resolution (latest one!)
IM NOT GONNA KEEP ANY MORE SECRETS ((:
(unless of course its other ppl's secrets)
yay i feel better now ((((;
-Pink&Black
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6:31 AM
Dear God,The only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away.We all need that person who can be true to you. But I left her when I found her. And now I wish I'd stayed. Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired. I'm missing you again oh no. Once again.Love,Hanisahso here's my new yr resolutions. this time, its gonna be a lil different than the past few yrs
1.) get l1r5 below 25 for first ct, below 20 for mids, below 15 for prelims and below 10 for o's :D
2.) work my way towards being
slim and
tall (45kg and 162cm. ((: )
3.) not ec(girl)/like(guy) ANYONE at all, seriously(for 2008) = forget bout apricot + candy cane. ): though i admit, abit hard.
4.) can blog only twice per week. at most. holidays not included. any emo post/ranting/venting will be done at my other blog(unknown)
5.) save at least $20 per month :// (diedie must)
6.) be a more tolerant person (omg yes must. i cant stand taking the train to sch cause i will end up cursing to myself)
7.) definitely be more diligent and hardworking (study like a damn nerd and hand in hmwk in time. MUST)
there, seven resolutions. quite positive i can keep all ((; well maybe not fully but still, half of it can right? (like be 160cm and 47kg or smth)
did i say, that im a sucker when it comes to matters of the heart?
anws, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! :D
hello 2008, goodbye 2007 )): i hope 2008 will be a goooood one. actually, i dont care. good or not, i shall still make it a good one. looking back on the years, i cant believe that i actually survived through everything and that im standing here now, with only memories left behind. but dont worry, cause i wont lose those memories ever. i shall safeguard them in my heart, padlock it and put a lazer beam around it so that noone and nothing can enter and take them away ((:
okay, i shall not start the new yr with being emo.
have a good one everyone
(shit cant believe sch's starting so fast. im so damn prepared for sec4 life((: NOT)
-Pink&Black
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5:24 AM
this morn was really nice i guess.
had jk meeting and it was really niceeee, haha with the usual randomness and stuff. a few updates:
1.) good news. we're gonna have a pbmc outing, play the paintball or wtv its called i think. spaces limited to 30 only (not including us jk and cikgu) so when you get more news bout it must hurry up hand in the form tau!! btw, it'll be on the 12th (i thinkk. my memory's not tt gd yknow)
2.) bad news. pbmc's gonna be collapsed. which means, like last time, angklung+pbmc=one cca. which is bad. veryyyy. SOME advantages, but ALOT of disadvantages. okay, its a very long story. still trying to solve matters asap. everyone will be informed soon enough.
3.) PBMC tea party, on 15th jan if im not wrong (its a tues). we're hoping everyone will comeee ((: (& idc im gonna skip my csp lesson HEH HEH)
4.) the jk ppl will step down somewhere during april(agn, on the 15th. loll), so we're gonna elect new members. & HEH HEH they will have to make a speech loll. thank god for our batch. and we're gonna include the sec3&sec2 '08 ppl in the jk. (:
ok, thats it i think. anws we were having random talks as usual. and guess what cikgu told us. kak farah (from sec4 '05 batch) is gonna be our relief teacher for higher mly LOLL hahah so unimaginable, really. so its like...cikgu farah. hahah. weird. anws. we were talking bout our new principal and vice principal too (;
after which was camwhoring session with me beloved jk members! hahahah its so fun/funny/thrilling/exciting loll.
i love my jk to bits and pieces ((:
it kinda hit on me today that there will be no more stuff next yr. not much at least. i dont have to say the obvious. crescent holds too much fond memories for me, i really cant bear to let go. im gonna hate the day that i leave crescent, ever.
-Pink&Black
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4:46 AM
Sunday, December 30, 2007
I cant stand freaking ppl who reads my blog (referring to my sis and mum. yes, if you guys are reading this. PFTTTTTTTTTT)
im very pissed so i shall not say anth much here. oh, the Double Virgo L attack!
(oh anw if any of you reading this hehe i want a nice good guitar if i do well for my o's HEH HEH)
anws, i shall hereby declare my love for NUR SABRINA BIDIN :DDi swear i never had a more supportive friend than you (:
thanks for all the times, for being there 24/7 when i need you, and for being the greatest listening ear in the whole wide world. I LOVE YOU! *blows flying kisses* we shall stay strong tgt yeah? and yeahhh, just know that you'll always have my back buddy (;
so anws, today i went to cut my hair. i was quite happy with my hair, at first. until the lady started cutting my fringe till its so damnit short, now i look like some LiAnZxZ/meeeeeeeeeeenah. & i went to get my new specs. Its PINK yo! :D
but with my hair and specs tgt i realised i look like some typical chi girl. PFFFFFFFFT.
ok i shall go now (HMPH)
byeeee!
(oh did i mention, i have such a random cousin. loll)
-Pink&Black
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7:09 AM
Saturday, December 29, 2007
everytime the new year comes, i dont know why but i feel sad.
happy, excited, thrilled, but still sad at the same time.
cause it marks a new beginning (really)
and you know how much i always hate having to leave some things behind and accept new ones in my life.
and you know how much i dont really fancy changes.
cause you wont know what to expect. maybe good and bad at the same time.
and honestly, im quite tired of this whole thing. (i've thought of another new yr resolution. you'll see it soon)
cause what nurul said was/is true. i guess. :/
no use hiding it anymore? cause i dont trust this world. i never did anyway.
im going out of my mind, i swearrr. i need someone to salvage me!
im disgusted by myself. really.
& well, if you listen to my heart close enough, maybe you can hear it.
if you know me well enough, maybe you know it.
but i've made a vow.
and anyone who knows me well knows that i dont break my vows.
(not promises. promises not counted here ehhh)
OH and back then in sectwo everyone was thinking that padmini's crazy cause she would seriously rather study than do her hmwk. (so she ended up always getting scolded by the teachers)
but hey she managed to get first in class without fail every time yknow. top ten in level. and now, being in sec3, yes i just realised. studying is a million times better than doing hmwk. trust me :0
plus, you dont know how crushed i really feel. there's always this weight on my shoulders thats weighing me down. and i can nvr seem to get it off.
i seriously feel very torn now. and i cant cry anymore cause well, i think my tear glands decide to stop producing anymore tears.
but i reallyreally feel very super crushed. so much i cant even explain it.
i just feel soooooo damn bloody crushed. knn. (yes i realised how often i keep using the word crushed) but what can i do, i feel really crushed. and no, not bout what you think it is. im thinking more of like, friendship wise you know? &i really have this urge to talk to adlina. dk why. but there's nth much we can talk about anyway. maybe i should just call hanizah up, cause she can always make me feel better somehow. but but i just cant bear to call the green call button everytime i get to her number. SIGHHHHH.
-Pink&Black
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5:34 AM
Friday, December 28, 2007
dream?
"i know laaaa". or somewhere along that line, i assume. LOL
yest i had a rather strange dream.
like, i was in the hospital, running about looking for this particular person.
i asked the nurse what ward she is in and the nurse keeps insisting that there's nobody in the hospital who has that name :/
kinda scary, you know. and i think this whole thing is really getting onto me :////
i've been going to all those online shops for 3 hrs straight now.
and i saw these really amazing ones.
should really check it out, so coooool :0
http://juzval.livejournal.com/5001.html#cutid1http://juzval.livejournal.com/1477.html#cutid1http://juzval.livejournal.com/3203.html#cutid1http://missmrtee.blogspot.com/i have this sudden urge to go for a shopping spree now. MAN.
-Pink&Black
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10:23 PM
its coming once again
i keep adjusting my lit hmwk cause i keep feeling like its not good enough. ahh crap. i feel like giving up on lit now.
and i think i watch too much drama maybe.
just now my heart was beating very fast and there's this weird sick feeling in my stomach.
and yes, i have been having crazy/weird thoughts since yest.
like how i really think that ______ is really _____.
yes yes, must be the fault of the 9 o'clock chi drama that i watch.
ok im off to do some ________ now. tata!
-Pink&Black
(oh and i forgot to add, i was fasting today so when i broke fast, i actually ate double the amount of rice that i usually eat. ohmyyy im becoming a glutton. BAD)
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6:05 AM
random pics:
OMG double chins eeeeww
proof that six yr olds CANT take proper pics
hahah i think this pic is cool. my cam skills not that bad eh!
ymc bbq:
we were really bored.
outing yest:
haha one of the unsuccessful pics
again
im the shortest ):
again an unsuccessful shot
alyssa still looks so nice even though this shot is random ):
nice but blur
not blur but geraldine's face half hidden
i was torn, as to what skin to choose cause i really like a few.
but i guess i shall skip the pinky ones and settle for a dark one. hahah.
okay im almost done with hmwk i feel so blessed and glad ((:
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12:47 AM
Thursday, December 27, 2007
random;
okay, so it wasnt exactly a pleasant thing to say/tell. but its not my fault that i think that ______ is _____ what right? i make a good psychologist no? mmhmmm
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and i feel insecure in this blog too. to have people come here and read your stuff, with them just ending up with getting the wrong idea. sucks. really.
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"just let it out.. haha, or just stone. it helps you know (: dont think so much and it's not healthy to keep it in. so just let it out girl (: "
i have sucha great friend, i feel so blessed, really (:
the one who is ever so understanding, the one whom i can let out my feelings freely to, the one who gives unique and perfect advices. ahh noone can ever replace you heh heh I LOVE YOU! (((:
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i miss joyce. i know thats random, cause i can give you a list of ppl whom i miss and the list will just go on and on and on and on. but this girl here, left me a deep impression back in my sec2 days (which i can nvr stop saying that i reallyreally miss) she's the one whom i always turn to when i have problems with my studies(esp math! heh), the one who can give me great advices and really calm me down when im in the worst shit ever, the one who enlighten me spiritually, the one who always never fail to make me see the bright side in everything, the one who brings light in every dark situation. ahh i love her loads and i miss hanging around with her booohooo )):
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i dont know why, at all. but i feel so confined, so...trapped. its like im in such a small space, that i cant even move, or breathe properly. a space, where there's no light, and i cant even see THE LIGHT. its like i wanna escape and run far far far away but the chains tie my legs down. and everything's making me dizzy, until i cant think straight (by straight, i mean, properly)
you know, like the feeling the soul inside you is dying. just that its worse than really dying, cause well, you're physically alive and kicking but you have to fake everything, your smiles, your joy, your sincerity. cause you know that your soul is dying, its dead.
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and well, im really damn sleepy now. but not to the extent that i can fall asleep straight away when i my head hits the pillow. cause i dont like to not being able to get to sleep as soon as possible, and your brain will be clogged up with your problems and alot of serious nonsense. then you will think alot, think too much. which will then, keep you awake for the next few hours or so. and then you get rudely awakened early in the morning the next day. not a good thing. thats my holidays for you, yupp. explains why im veryvery sleep deprived this hols ://
-Pink&Black
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7:47 AM
400th!
this is my 400th post for this blog. as such, i shall make this entry as happy as possible (though im still feeling like CRAP)
so today, had angklung early in the morn. yes, 7.15 it was. i abandoned siti and went first :/ and that raihan totally went mia on me!
anws, angklung was not too bad. surprised i didnt lost touch with my dearest little F and yea, guess all of us were good considering the fact that we havent touched that thing for so long. (besides the fact that we have been playing those same songs over and over and over and over agn throughout the whole yr)
so yeah, taridra lunch after that, with geraldine too. hahah (let me add here that our new pe tshirt suckssss )): )
anws, yeah, followed liy to town first to get her sports bra. loll.
then went to meet the rest (= hanna, alyssa, adlina, nurul, geraldine)
hahaha i swear i was high on pretzels then. couldnt stop laughing like crap, most of the time for no apparent reason :/ oh dear, blame that crazy influential friend of mine!
then went to the rooftop area there, we just sat down and talked.
and haha, its good to hear ppl bitch and rant once in a while, while you just sit down there listening.
yupp, so it was great. adlina and nurul left first and we talked some more. had a little failed camwhoring session otw home loll.
(aye, i still feel kinda shitty god knows why. the weird feeling that has been bugging me all these while. im glad i have amazing friends ((: )
okay, i cant upload any pics cause my stupid tablet is such an asssssssssssssssssss. must wait, pics up soon! ((:
-Pink&Black
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3:15 AM
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
fate
i cry sometimes thinking of fate.
really wrenches my heart.
not mine, the people around me, my loved ones.
grandma,
i rmb the look in your eyes everytime you look at me.
i wont forget how nice you were to me, or rather us, though none of us were related by blood. i miss your wonderful cakes too. and how we would go to johor tgt to get your stuff. i hate, how much i didnt get to save you, when i saw you suffering and passing away in front of my own eyes. i didnt wanna cry, cause i didnt want ppl to see that im weak. i just thought, maybe you're better off in heaven. i didnt even get to kiss you for the last time, not even on your burial day. i miss the sweet sound of your voice. i miss you, trust me, i really do.
uncle,
where have you been? you seem so far away now, almost impossible for me to reach. i miss you coming to my house often, us riding on your motor bike, rounding my old neighbourhood as we laughed away. you, who used to always complain to me that im too skinny (that was last time) i think i was only six or seven then, i didnt know what happened, but you were gone for a very long time. i asked people what happened to you, but nobody gave me an answer. they just said, you went away. years went by and i still didnt see you. i've grown up. many years later, i finally got to see you. but i thought i couldnt recognise you anymore, do you recognise me too? it was only for awhile. and now you're gone again. it took me so long, eight/nine years to really realise whats going on. which means, i can only see you again in about 2 to 3 years time time from now. i really miss you, dont you know?
and now, i believe that there are such things as miracles. God has just given me one, and many others in the past. blessed.
-Pink&Black
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4:30 AM
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
what goes around comes around
frustrated.
christmas eve was bad.
hanisah's freaking pissed now.
life's just unfair, yupp.
i think im always falling for the wrong person.
shoot me.
yes, im running away now.
i still cant let go of my insecurities.
what can you do bout that?
if you can find me then well, i guess thats fate.
-Pink&Black
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6:37 AM
Sunday, December 23, 2007
first cut is the deepest
today was quite a good day i suppose. though i cant go out with amira (SORRY!!) to go shopping for clothes, at least i went to johor with my family (:
had shoe shopping and im glad to say that now hanisah is a very happy girl indeed ((:
then i saw some really nice and CHEAP guitars. and i was telling my dad that im really gonna save up with my own money and he shall bring me back there one day to get my guitar.
once again, hanisah's happy cause her dad is supportive of the idea of her learning how to play the guitar.
dad: "how are you going to learn to play the guitar?"
me: "by books lah! and maybe get someone to help me abit"
dad: "you're going to learn by heart or by chord?"
me: "(try to figure out what he's talking about. after awhile,) by heart ah. easier that way"
dad: "but then how are you going to play if ppl give you chords!"
me: "aiyah who cares. i'll just learn how to play some really good songs and people will think im good alr."
dad: "???"
LOL
heh heh my dad rockss ((;
so in short, he would rather i go for guitar lessons.
but yes, very sad cause next yr there's no way that that's possible. so maybe after o's or smth BOOHOO ):
ate at the pizza hut there and boy, for the first time i really felt satisfied after a meal there. they had this mexican set meal or smth (not sure if they have it in singapore) and its really goood!
my lil sis is crazy, i swear. she knows alot of the songs on my playlist, knows how to sing to almost all that she knows. AND man, she's addicted to the song Rockstar cause obviously, she being a busybody, listened to my new songs and she became so addicted to it until she could memorise the song in just one day and she kept singing it everywhere. MADNESS I TELL YOU (take note that she's only eight this yr) SO BIMBO (!!!)
so now, im only left with some essays and abit of amath. which is quite good/not good. cause i hate essays ):
and tmr's ymc bbq! YAY! :D
plus angklung this thurs (:/):
sad, cause we have to be in sch by 7.15, yes, SEVEN FIFTEEN.
(dude, i come during that time or sometimes even come later than that on normal sch days ://) and yeah, have to go through the torturous journey all the way to sch.
but good, cause i really do miss shaking that angklung (after manymanymany months) and i need to hand in all my long overdued hol hmwk :/ and maybe, might be joining the 6p ppl for class gathering, watching movie. or even taridra outing maybe. (:
im still thinking of my new year's resolutions and i only have like 3 now? pathetic.
plus, even though i dont celebrate christmas, i can always feel the spirit and joy of it every time it comes every year(yes, with all the sales and all). and i would always send cards to my christian friends (with an exception of this yr though :( )
and and i miss spending christmas eves with my old neighbour ))): ahh, sad.
and also, i was reading the newspaper a few days back i think. about this bombing, which happened in India(? i think). like when people are praying(it was during hari raya haji), this bomb exploded and yeah, some were killed and many were injured. i was like ??!! when i read it. like, whats becoming of this world. whats up with all these bombings, hatred, selfishness and cruelty. and to think that it actually happened in a MOSQUE, God's house.
well, honestly im very scared(obviously) cause its one of the manymany signs which shows that the world is coming to an end soon.
i'll think,
will i sleep tonight and still wake up to see tomorrow?
will i get to grow up, be successful in life and become old and grey?
will i get to do everything that i wanna do and say everything that i wanna say to the people around me?
i would have given you all of my heart; but there's someone who has torn it apart (first cut is the deepest)
(i find that love is very selfish and yes, i always fall for the wrong person. dont get me wrong uhhh)
-Pink&Black
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6:46 AM
Saturday, December 22, 2007
vanish
im going away for a while now. but no, i wont abandon this blog. i'll still post up here but uh, yeah. only true friends privilaged to read :D
BYE YA'LL!
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12:02 AM
Friday, December 21, 2007
Earth and Venus: Twins seperated at birth
i just ate apricots but somehow it doesnt makes me high anymore. in fact it really made me feel sick in the stomach. bleh. SHOOT ME.
haha my title is very random. cause im doing my theme reviews :/
anws im too bored sitting here and just doing my work. so i feel like blogging again.
people have been talking bout thinking what to write for their new yr's resolution but i cant seem to think of any. ok maybe do superbly well for o's but its so...unoriginal. like if you see every new yr resolution, you can somehow find those common things. like lose weight, study harder, get good grades, be a better person blahblahblah and im really tired of doing that every year. its almost the same every yr for me and whats the point, cause i prolly forget it a couple of months later and i dont really achieve everything. so yes, i shall come up with a different one this yr. (soon, cause my mind's totally blank)
and i cant see myself anywhere later on in life. yeah, i have to face it. i dont have the brains, definitely not the looks and obviously no hidden talent or whatsoever. i dream of being a psychologist, maybe a detective or fashion designer, even to the extent of becoming a doctor. but hey, noone can stop me from just dreaming right.
i've picked up some of my school books and tried to look/read through it and in the back of my mind, i ask myself, do i really need to know all these shit?
i know many ppl too dont find the purpose of learning all these redundant stuff but according to this person (i totally forgot who. was it ms ho? or mr tan? or y.o.? or mr koh?), said that we must work hard. not because we like it or not. its just to test us to see how far we can go, to see our limits and to see our ability to learn new things. well, honestly, i hold on to those words, when i just dont feel like looking at anymore numbers or huge chunks of texts like a day before my exam. but its crazy.
你。我真的不知道。我的心说你是真的得人我找。可是，我说我没有爱的感觉。你是我的朋友，我说，你是有的朋友。可是，为什么我的心有这个的感觉？我对不起，我不要你霸我。我要你开心，我不要你不开心。我不恨你。 我对不起，我真的对不起。
ah, that feels better. i know the grammar's not exactly good and yeah, my vocab is very limited. but it feels good to write smth in chi once in a while. i kinda miss the whole feeling.
-Pink&Black
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1:53 AM
Thursday, December 20, 2007
i cannot escape and i cannot forget
(its going to be yet another random post)
so yest err was OKAY. didnt take any pics cause, ahwell im not in the mood. talked to my cousin (who is an ex-crescentian (:) bout studies and stuff. and i realised that i've sort of decided what i really wanna be when i grow up. (shall be a secret for now heh heh)
(my phone's being an extreme bitch today. my music player refused to work for god knows what reason)
im almost done with hmwk, quite a good thing i guess.
so its left with all the studying and memorising :/ (which i doubt i'll do)
&&im still quite pissed/upset with this person causeeeeee ARGH. i just hate misunderstandings (see, she's alot like hanizah i swear :0) SUCKS.
and yest once agn, i had a very scray dream. nothing like any of the other scary dreams that i ever had. ):
oh did i mention? i counted and i found out that only from this year, i actually have FIVE baby cousins and relatives. and another 8 toddlers :0 haha i feel so old suddenly. everything's changing
and i swear my life sucks, this hols i think is like one of the worst (maybe partly due to hmwk) cause you know i take forever to finish mine. like, i started my hmwk when the hols started and i still havent finished :0
and i didnt go out much ever since after the production. with ppl(including me) being broke, getting grounded here and there and such reasons.
okay ppl have a nice day!
-Pink&Black
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9:45 PM
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
i cant give anymore
and suddenly im feeling all so fucked up again. like the whole world's against me or smth. i hate it when this kinda feeling comes. obviously sucks.
i suddenly feel mean, feel bad. for what? i dont know. (i know, im this random at times)
and for no reason i just feel like hating everybody, esp s.w.q.(dont ask me why. like i said, im this random)
cause isnt it better to hate everything, everyone? then at least when things happen you wont feel anth, cause you're alr numb
and then you wont give a fuck bout whats happening or not.
yes, your life will be that simple.
and i hate it how i will really hate/dislike one person at a moment, but once that person does a teeny-weeny nice thing to me, i will forget about it. and then the whole cycle will just keep on repeating and repeating and repeating as long as my life goes on. sucks.
now i just feel like slapping and punching someone, anyone.
-Pink&Black
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7:26 AM
you open doors that close
we're so alike, NOT. haha. but i still love her anw.
we look goooood. HAHAH
OMG bad influence of moves from the biggy sis :0
this was early this yr. graduate's tea.
ahhhhh we all look so diff in less than a yr
HAHAH hilarious. book that my sis borrowed. HAIYOH so true
im such a nice sis to actually bring my sis to her swimming lessons
i look like a freaking maid here. GAHH. but my sis looks good here haha so i shall still upload this pic
OMG my EIGHT YEAR OLD sis actually asked me to take this emo pic of her. goshh whats becoming of this world
my opposite love!
okay, so today was impromptu outing with biggy sis. went to nenek's house first to send the cake. and my six-yr-old-but-looks-like-four cousin is so kiut ;p
then headed to nyai's house to send another cake :/
walked to bugis from there. totally bad choice man.
first, it was drizzling but the weather was damn hot. since i knew it was going to rain, i wore a 3/4 sleeved top and damn, it was so hotttttt.
second, my make-up is NOT waterproof = scary eyes and pale look.
thirdly, i wore these jeans thats abit too loose for me so since the ground is wet, my jeans became wet too and its so ERGH
and fourth, i wore my slippery sandals w/o realising it AND i fell on my butt :// but THANK GOD it was in the carpark so yeah, only some drivers saw I THINK (you dont need to know why we were in the carpark)
so anws went to bugis to shoppp! but im still damn pissed i cant get this top that i reallyreallyreally like, cause it doesnt come in my size AHHHHHHHHHH. and after not going there for a few months ONLY suddenly everywhere they are selling skinnies ://
sorry but im just oh so anti skinnies. maybe just those weird colourful ones. black's still OKAY. or maybe its just because of those minahs who gave me such weird thoughts of skinnies
then went to get some earrings and i was feeling goooood so bought sis a pair (:
headed to coffee beans for a drink. ohmegosh it has been so much a part of me this hols i swear i gain more weight than i manage to lose :0
then back home. YAH. okay im not in the blogging mood today.
and i suddenly have this rekindled love for Atomic Kitten and The Corrs :00
but currently im super addicted to I Cant Help But Wait and Thunder (ahh this one thanks to adlina :///) hahah im quite close to finishing my hmwk. REJOICE!
OH and how could i forget, HAPPY HARI RAYA HAJI to all ((:
-Pink&Black
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6:03 AM
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
i close the doors.
okay i know its a very weird hour to blog (5.37am) but i cant sleep since hours ago and due to the extreme boredom and irritation, i decided to blog.
have no idea why i cant sleep though. must be the Killer Mudpie that i ate at like what? 10.30? ://
anws i have been tossing and turning in my bed for like 3 hours and have listened to every old song in my playlist and yet i cant sleep. GAHH.
so i shall talk about my dream yest night.
started off, by me going to school (it was the first day)
then i was walking up the slope and i called amira to ask her where she was. so she was with raihan, in the train, though it was alr like SEVEN (haha cause in reality we have made plans to come SUPER EARLY on the first day of school so that we can get nice proper seats at the back of the class)
then somehow after that we all ended up at this theatre place (supp to be PAT :/)
AND all ten of us, the taridra ppl did this BALLET TARIDRA thing ((: it was really nice, like a fusion dance.
i rmb how happy and wonderful everyone was. i could dance oh-so-gracefully and so perfectly in my dream and the best thing is, ALL OF US COULD DANCE AND STAND ON OUR TOES! haha talking bout being great ballerinas.
and i could rmb, how satisfied i felt after the whole performance.
BUT the freakyfreaky thing is, i could still rmb the moves :0 scary huh
(raihan suggested that i teach all the taridra ppl the dance during the taridra outing LOL)
so yeah that was my dream, it was really so wonderful but it just stopped there ):
and yest night/morn was aweZome. haha. had a really nice chat with sabby and it really made me feel better (i hope she's better too now) i managed to let go a teeny part of my insecurities, thanks to sab of course (:
though its not alot but hey, i cant possibly let go of all the same time right? and plus what she said made me see things from another point of view, a totally diff one from what i used to see ((: yay i love sab!
so today (or rather yest) was rather productive i must say. failed attempt to complete alot of hmwk in the afternoon, though i did manage to complete half a mly paper. then spent the rest of the afternoon helping mum bake for ppl. and oh my i did like 1/2 of the work i really should get the credit too you know :0 tskk so anws, i only manage to do alot of my hmwk at night, maybe thats good. (:
haha okay i better go off soon, mum's gonna wake up real soon to wake everyone up for subuh :/ better go before she catch me and before my tablet gets confiscated agn HEH
-Pink&Black
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1:34 PM
Sunday, December 16, 2007
random random post
so everything in this post today will be random, cause i feel like being random, i like being random. (read if you really wish to)
oh yah, i decided to cheat abit for my essays since we have TEN to do. not really cheat but i just decided to type everything out and then copy it onto paper. cause i realised that i tend to write longer and more sensible things when i type things out.
yest wasnt exactly a good day. but then, not that everyday is actually a good one. i rmb what M said to me, 'there's more things in life to be happy about than to be sad about' or somewhere along that line, cant exactly rmb. but i really like that because it is one of those things that keeps me strong during those stormy days. and yest we had a little chat and i felt happier cause it took my mind off things.
i suddenly hate saying the word Snow White Queen/S.W.Q. cause i dunno it just sounds so mysterious, full of vengeance, sad, emo blahblahblah. maybe should just stick to apricot, since it sounds very lively, happy, cute, care-free etcetc. okay im not making much sense.
and lately i feel very rich. hahah im still finding a perfect day for me to go shopping. ohoh hanisah was QUITE a happy gal yest cause she got her bag (: but its not pink ): andand she realised that the handle is too short when she tried it at home, so its like the handle thing keeps slipping off her shoulders :/ and she just got to realise that she could use it as a sling bag too! (:
and omg these IT guys just came to my house and im really very freaked out by them :0 they started doing stuff and looked at my tablet and asked me so many weird questions and stuff. like really, they're nice but err SCARY. a reason why i dont like IT ppl :/ IM FREAKED OUT
i realised, how empty s3 will be next year. i really hate the thought of no longer being in the same class as those few. esp amanda, cause she really turns boring lessons into interesting ones. and her crappiness in class. and ohmy no more double hanisah's in class, which means that next yr if any teacher calls out my name to ask qns i cant hide anymore, like how i used to and pretend that the other hanisah's the one. HAHAH. plus nazeera with her craziness. zoey, who can also turn boring lessons into funny/interesting ones for the whole class. and OMG i havent seen huiqi in the longest time ever (5months i think?) and weird, but i kinda miss her presence in class :/ we're gonna lose the greatest vice chair ): and omg shyan (!!). man everything just seems to crazy (anth relating to sch i mean)
okay im just so sick of everything. and i really mean it. im sick of homework, sick of life, sick of myself. and just sick of EVERYTHINGGGG.
i know it just might seem crazy but im waiting for someone to really make me fall real bad. but i feel like as though all along im floating in air and i need to get back on earth, but i just feel like i cant do it if yes, unless there's someone who makes me fall.
cause i know im crazy, too crazy to be true. outside im just saying like hey, its just a normal crazy ec thing going on, except that this person this time round is not older than me. but inside i know damnit well that im lying to myself, that maybe everything means much more (no, no sexual thoughts here dude) like the whole Hanizah thing. im perfectly straight btw. yes trust me.
i have from #2-#10 left to go i wonder when will be the time that i can finally say out #10 with ease.
-Pink&Black
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8:36 PM
RENAME <3
RENAME I think it has already been a year now. Time sure flies. I rmb, a year back, we were nowhere near to close to each other. I can still rmb, it was during the ymc thingy. We found out that we share manymany common interests. Rmb the gossiping during break? and how it got all of us hyped up and laughing our heads off? we were in the toilet, busy doing up on our makeup (HAHA) and aqilah (i think) commented that we look like a band, that we can make a perfect band. So we decided to be a pretend one. We headed to vivo, the six of us together, and damn, we really bonded so well. So, im the bassist, siti's the singer, raihan's the rhythmic guitarist, liy's the keyboardist, aqilah's the drummer and amira is the errr, background singer (HAHA). So we named ourselves some weird name (i cant rmb what it was) then we thought it was a lame name so someone apparently wanted to rename it, so yeah. RENAME was formed then. (i still rmb, it was in the train) i rmb the times when we sat on the train floor and we talked oh so loudly and laughed away and ate jellybeans and not care bout anth else. and that night, we make the rename emails ((:
and i didnt realise how much we got closer and closer and closer during the year. countless trips to town tgt, outings after school, 'mugging' tgt before exams, lido-ing almost every week, the gossiping, the silliness. but lately things just feel so weird. like smth isnt right. (maybe its just still my paranoia) and im saying this because tmr's our very own special Donut Day and yet again, we're not celebrating it tgt. i cant rmb when was the last time, three months ago i think. but yes, whatever it is, i hope we stay close tgt and yes, i love each and every one of you to bits and pieces.
RAIHAN, i rmb how i always thought you're a very quiet, shy, kind of person, till i realised that man, you're so not like that. haha. thanks for standing my nonsense and always be my fav source of entertainment, my enthu, cute class partner for 1/4 yr! heheh. oh ya, and thanks for the occasional car rides to school ((:
AMIRA, my silly girl! hahah thanks for always hearing me rant about everything under the sun, nvr fail to make me feel better each time. i hardly know you at all last time, and only had faint memories of you when we were back then in p2 but hey, you've proved to me so much things and im glad i found someone like you. thanks for being the greatest listening ear ((:
SITI, my all time bestest buddy for five years!! haha we've gone through so much throughout the past few years, and i think it made our friendship stronger than before. thanks for being there always, for tolerating me through rain or shine, hearing me rant bout things that are sometimes not even impt and just for being there all these while. you rockk girl ((:
LIYANA, i rmb, we were mly partners for the whole of secone, and of course, you were one of those first friends that i made in crescent. even then, we didnt really open much to each other and this year, really made me see the other side of you. your crappiness always put a smile on my face and i cant thank you enough for listening to my deep dark secrets (HEHE) ((:
AQILAH, you! you're the one who really leaves a deep impression on me (the others too lah, but yours a tad more), cause you reallyreally wasnt the person i thought you were. you may not be in the same class as us, but im glad we're just so close. (though you still do scare me when you're angry :0) for always being the enthu and supportive one, thank you ((:
so there, all of RENAMEs.
HAPPY DONUT DAY GUYS! (:
-Pink&Black
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6:24 AM
Friday, December 14, 2007
it could last no more, no more
i dont feel like blogging today but due to the boredom that i am currently experiencing, blogging seems like the only other alternative (besides blog hopping and friendster hopping cause im tired of doing that)
airport on wed was not baddd. the whole Cousin Crew took the rented bus(?) to the airport. and it was so nice and cool and emo (ten at night!)...till my cousin beside me just had to vomit half way through :// kinda spoilt the whole mood cause....HAHA yeahh. but airport was really niceeeee. to see people tearing/crying and stuff. ahhhh.
busted money on nth but food&drinks. coffee bean's good stuff man. ((:
i ate so much till i was sick in the stomach hahah
and it was one when we finally went home. nice journey home though, the whole car was so quiet finally i could have some peace (without my mother's voice interfering all the time)
thurs, couldnt go for the ymc bonding lunch thing )):
but nonetheless, i didnt feel that bad at the end of the day.
father took leave. started out by going to the skin centre.
fetched grandpa after that, he followed us. (:
followed by going to marina square. it was very niceeeee cause finally i get to actually go there when its not even crowded at all. looked around for stuff, couldnt find my bag ):
then went to suntec to find more stuff, AND I STILL COULDNT FIND MY BAG AHHHHH. unfairrrr both sis got theirs alr ))):
then we decided to go to johor on an impulse. so yep went there.
we took hours to find the PERFECT shoes for my sis and she still couldnt find one that she really likes PFFFFFFTTTT.
ate there and the restoran there was quite nice but disgusting. we found this Unknown Creature (LOLL, unknown insect lahh) in my sis's dish. damn disgusting i tell you. had dunkin donuts but nahhh, their standard's really very baddd now even singapore's donuts are like 894373666666547y372930912 times better!
went home after that, dropped by grandpa's house at yishun ANDAND he gave us money HEHEH im a happyhappy galzxz ((:
andandand my aunt's gonna give us our money soon! for the wedding thing the other time. AND hari raya haji's coming (: boy am i a happyhappy kid!
hehe so today went to the library. felt so bored and stoned. i ate ONE piece of chicken at kfc and i could feel the fats making itself comfortable under my skin :0 (haha okay im exaggerating) but there goes my 2kg ):
okay thats my boring life for you.
siti's leaving tmr andand M's coming back to singapore today (:
im suddenly in the mood to write poems now. SIGH.
OH. did i mention, that siti (sec3) thinks that Snow White Queen is the siti(sec1). LOLL i was laughing my head off. HAHAHA
-Pink&Black
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6:08 AM
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
close your eyes; give me your hand darling
so im here today to blog about yesterday(picnic!)it was okay overall. the company wasnt a blasting one but it was good (cause manymanymany ppl didnt come. )): )started out by cycling. supp to be a relaxing one but damn, didnt know we'll cycle that much! but the company was good nontheless.ooh guess what we cycled from the bicycle shop all the way to changi beach, and then back again!woah took us 2 1/2 hrs and damn, im so proud of myself! greatest accomplishment of the year (or holidays at least)and it was so sunny! only rained for a while. andand i was so sure it was going to rain, so i brought stuff for raining weather. HAHAHAthe whole thing ended around five plus?then me, siti, liy, amira and raihan slacked at macs for awhile.andand they were selling apple dippers at only one packet for a dollar dude!! haha i was so glad (:the longggg train ride home was goooood. but my whole body was aching so badly. i swear, my body never ached so bad in my life before :0haha but man, i lost two kg!! unbelievable but trueeeeee! heeheeokay im off to eattttt! (oh no there goes my two kg!)Ungu - Kekasih Gelapkuku mencintaimu lebih dari apapunmeskipun tiada satu orang pun yg tahuku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatikumeskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku
yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintakuyg kucari slama ini dalam hidupkudan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintakuyg panjang dalam hidupku
ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatikumeskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapkuku mencintaimu lebih dari apapunmeskipun tiada satu orang pun yg tahuku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatikumeskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku
kekasih gelapku-Pink&Black
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9:06 PM
just came back from picnic
my whole body's aching like crazy that even typing this out is really straining my muscles. argh :/
shall do a proper proper update tmr (:
andand i think i shall lock up this blog soon, real soon.
or just make another new blog. GRINS.
its not good when your secrets get into the hands of others, its okay if its my trusted friends but hurr, it might get into the hands of the untrusted ones. better play safe.
im quite freaked out. YIKES.
-Pink&Black
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6:33 AM
Monday, December 10, 2007
haha do visit
http://white-houses.blogspot.comi didnt know that i could write things so spontaneously. ((:
ahhh, im in the writing mood now mannnn.
-Pink&Black
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1:58 AM
baby girl you could be my Cinderella
its raining the whole dayand boy, do i feel better.was supp to go out with liy and siti to town today to shoppppp but nah, cancelled, AGAIN.i even had a dreamt bout it all.yest, i dreamt the 3 of us were at 'vivo' and there were so many super pretty designer shops around and the mall was so hugeeeeeeee. ):anws i was shivering like crap just now. no not because of the rain, but i figured its because i havent consumed anything since yst afternoon till now. and haha, yes its true. so i ate some rice and made myself a yummyyummy dessert ((:now, at least i dont feel so upset anymore.mum knows im super x1000000000 upset and she saw me crying for so long yest night.thus, she tried to make it up to me by wanting to accompany me buy the food for tmr. but nah, its raining so we cancelled the plan and she wanted to help me make some potato thing for tmr. HURR nicee but i know its because she still doesnt let me go on thurs >;( HMPHHHHHH i dont careeeeeee.chinese is making me go insane i swear. i realised, there's 54 chaps to study for the o's plus some more that we're gonna study next yr ://///and im only done with 19 chaps WTH(plus the fact that i've been working on it for WEEKS)and did i tell you? im wayyyy behind my schedule now and im barely 1/2way through my hmwk PFFFFTTTTT.and shitz, only three weeks left!-i owe sab a date (airport soon hehehe)-i owe sum another outing (yeahh shopping!!)-i owe elsa (!!) an outing too, hopefully we can go bowling!-i owe girlclique a movie outing cause i couldnt make it when they planned the other time ://.-i've yet to plan a date to go out with my sillyclique, to go swimming!!! :Dmost importantly i should:-finish up my half done compre-put tgt my summary nicely(only highlighted the points)-write up my compo nicely too(i've only written down my points)-write up my theme reviews (i only found the relevant sources)-do up all 3 stinking functional writing-complete lit essays (i've just started on both lit essays, just the intro!!)-complete all those half done qns for emath-do the same for amath-
write up the sentences for el vocab thing-complete mly! (which i've only just touched on)-and oh so boring book reviews which noone can seem to grab hold of any of the books. WTHMenghitung Hari (Irwansyah)menghitung hari, detik demi detik,menunggu itu kan menjemukantapi ku sabar, menanti jawabmu,jawab cintamujangan kau beri, harapan padaku,seperti ingin tapi tak inginyang aku minta, tulus hatimubukan pura-purajangan pergi dari cintaku,biar saja, tetap denganku,biar semua tahu adanya,dirimu memang punyakujangan kau beri harapan padaku,seperti ingin tapi tak ingin,yang aku minta, tulus hatimubukan pura-purajangan pergi dari cintakubiar saja tetap dengankubiar semua tahu adanyadirimu memang punyakubelum pernah, ku jatuh cintasekeras ini seperti padamujangan sebut aku lelakibila tak bisa dapatkan engkauyeahyeah the song is <3i think its nicer than the original one. (:hey there My Snow White Queen <333-Pink&Black
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12:05 AM
Sunday, December 09, 2007
You belong to me, My Snow White Queen
You belong to me,My snow white queen.There's nowhere to run, so let's just get it over.Soon I know you'll see,You're just like me.Don't scream anymore my love, 'cause all I want is youI can't save your life,Though nothing I bleed for is more tormenting.I'm losing my mind and you just stand there and stare as my world divides.-Apple bottom jeans (jeans)Boots with the fur (with the fur)The whole club was lookin at herShe hit the flo (she hit the flo)Next thing u knowShawty got low low low low low low low lowThem baggy sweat pantsAnd the reeboxs with the straps (with the straps)She turned around and gave that big booty a slap (heeeey)She hit the flo (she hit the flo)Next thing u knowShawty got low low low low low low low low-
Girl I can't help but waitTill you get that with him, it don't changeCan't help but waitTill you see that with me it ain't the sameCan't help but waitTill you, see you, for what you really areBaby girl you are a starAnd I can't help but wait-I promised youI'd take you out.Enjoy your night,out on the town.Light dinner andsome champagne.You deserve the bestof the finer thangs.Girl tonight you couldn't lookany better.Amazingly irresistable.I can see it in my mind,baby you and I,later on tonightmakin love.haha okay its just the last part thats um, sick. lol.i feel quite lost today, dont wish to talk bout it anymore though.but Macho Guy was goood (for both the eyes and my mental health, yes)but ahh sad, he's attached, related to me and even two of my other cousins(thirteen and ten) like him. tskk. but anws, yes he must be that hot (cute!!) till even a ten yr old girl can like him ((;now i kinda take back my words. im hoping that next week will be a good one yeah. thanks amira ily ((:and yeap, i shall just pray (:i think he knows i like him.i think she knows i like her-Pink&Black
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4:46 AM
Saturday, December 08, 2007
paranoia
i think im paranoid, especially these days.like i will tend to think that ppl have a diff meaning behind everything that they say, really.thats mostly the part.and maybe acceptance too.but heck, i think this is the reason why i always strain my relationship with anyone, be it friends, family or the ppl that i like/admire.like okay, i admit i tend to strain my friendship with this person cause i'll just get paranoid. like when she's abit too nice to me, i feel like she's up to smth, cause yknow, she's not that nice to me usually. and her being nice to me is so weirddddd, even when she just asks me to take care and such. but i realized that yes, its always my paranoia that has been straining our friendship all along. ahh, nvm, you get the gist of it.and i always feel like im the most imperfect person ever, with the most screwed up life and never able to get what/who she wants. uhuh, no use trying to say im not, cause the feeling will still remain inside me. but im glad. im glad that my friends accept me for who i am, for being there always and not hate me for what i am not.i love rename<3i love my sillyclique<3i love girlclique<3i love klas k<3i love g1 05/06<3i love s3 07<3and of course, the list goes on and on but im not talking bout individuals here. cause who knows, some of them might just have some hidden grudges against me. or think im the most disgusting person on earth but pretend like im the nicest person on earth in front of me.or maybe thinks im a freaky psychopath and so horrified that i actually like him/her but pretend like everything's normal in front of me.OH DEAR THERE I GO AGAIN.-Pink&Black
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7:24 AM
My Snow White Queen
i managed to complete championship2!!haha boy, cant tell you how glad i am, have been trying to get past that level for almost a week now.oh haha in case you're wondering, its just a racing game in my phone (: haha i have this thing for racing games you know, when i used to not really like it when i was younger.anws im so damn glad next week's drawing nearer.mon, out to town to shoppp! ;D and hopefully grab some food at some supermarket for picnic! hehetues, picnic!! boy, i have been looking forward to that for so long, cant rmb when was the last time i stepped onto a beach, and do real beachy(bitchy) stuff. HAHA. like cycling, swim, build sandcastles etcetcwed, err its the only free day of the week, i MUST complete my hmwk, oh, maybe a little trip to the library too.*curses book reviews*thurs, taridraaaaa outinggggggg! :DD hahah its the second thing im looking forward to! cant wait for movie marathon or maybe, just a movie will even do (:fri, ymc barbecue! hehe. another good thing cause i do have nice memories from last yr's bbq and i still rmb last yr's healthy dark choc that i ate which i think tastes a bit...weird. haha.sat, swimmingggggg! ((: i cant even rmb when was the the last time i went to a pool and really swim.sunday, errr. think im going out with my family as usual. and hopefully, get my bag too yay (:i've made countless trips to the kitchen and back, but everytime with my hands empty. cause i keep getting hungry this hols (grrrr) and there's nth to eat ):and i know everyone have their own weird habits, haha and its no exception for me.-i drink ALOT of coffee everytime im mad/pissed/upset, no idea why. -when i drink my drinks, i like to stand in front of the fridge, OPENED, and just stand there till i finish my drink.-i have this order before i sleep, like first i will pull down my comforter, place my white pillow standing right at the top, then place my pillow right in front of me (yea as a protection so i wont knock my head :0), then put my white sheep at the top right hand corner of the bed. after which, i will put my purple small pillow right in front of the sheep, place my small pink pillow on top of the purple pillow and grab my blue teddy and place it on top of the pillows (HAHA though usually i will always find the teddy lying on the floor the next morning). then i will place my blue angel pillow at the right side of the bed and the pink dog bone pillow at the left side of the bed. i will switch on the bed lights, then switch off the room light, turn on my radio and will ALWAYS end up sleeping with the lights on and my radio playing till the next morning ((:HAHA okay i know this is weird :// but hey, its just one of my weird habits.and just now i cried so bad, till my lips couldnt stop quivering, my whole body felt cold, as i bury myself in my soft toys. actually its quite a nice feeling you know, when the tears run down your cheeks and you can taste the saltiness of the tears. then you will start venting in your own heart and you can vent whatever you want to, cause noone can stop you or scold you for it. then you will just naturally feel consoled, like you've just confided in your no1 best friend. im my own best friend (:im suddenly addicted to Snow White Queen by Evanescence. though its an old song, it still like it alot <33>
Low and Snow White Queen reminds me of you. haha though the first one is err rather a weird song to connect it with you, not mentioning abit dirty, but that seems like your style baby (:
and of course, you'll be My Snow White Queen ((:
-Pink&Black
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12:30 AM
Friday, December 07, 2007
if only i could tell you that I LOVE YOU <3
did i mention how much i hate sony ericsson phones?
cause THEY.SUCK. im still traumatized by yest's incident.
so scary and...traumatizing (i cant find a better word to describe it)
today was once again, definitely not what i hoped to be. a few days back i was thinking that i could finish my hmwk by today (cheychey confident ahh haha) but i slacked so much goshhh. this must not happen next year (obviously)
i need retail therapy!! im dying to go outtttt and get some tops, esp those two that i saw at far east the other day oooh lala ;D
and yes im so bored this hols i alr planned what to get for ppl's bday next yr HEH HEH (some/almost all, its a 2-in-1 thing. heh) but so sad, this hols, alot of ppl are becoming broke due to the lack of $$ flowing in. ah, its such a sad sad world.
OH YES, and me and raihan are alr saying, we're so going out after the first day of sch cause then, we'll still feel happy and gay and rich, before they start pressurizing us for the big dreaded o's, before our world revolves around books and teachers and exams and tests, before we start spending 3/4 of our money on macs(while mugging) :0
next year i shall work veryveryvery hard and get good grades and do well for my o's and then hopefully my parents will get for me a nice, branded, hot electric guitar ((; oh yeah, maybe they could throw in a couple of hundred bucks, yupp would be good too ((: (yes, after i get my own acoustic guitar first)
-Pink&Black
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6:53 AM
Thursday, December 06, 2007
hello this is my new skin (:
i think the font's quite small, haha poor readers. so i shall write in a larger font. yeah, new skin. okay, not really. i was too lazy to find a new one, this one was from my other blog, unused and abandoned for 3 months haha.
anws, today was supposed to be hardcore homework day but..haha crap i only managed to complete 3/4 of my math. only.
i did my usual planner thingy hahaha but as usual, it doesnt really go perfectly as planned. and im having cramps now ))))):
was supp to go swimming today (yes and accompany my bRaTzY sister for her swimming lesson, and swim with her after her lesson) HAHA but thank god it rained. she was half-choking me and torturing me to go with her for 1/2 hr even though i said yes a million times HMPH.
home alone again, nth unusual. sis out to work and the rest out for grocery shopping hmmm. was pissed/merajok at mum so i refused to follow.
and im glad veryveryvery upset that there's only 3 more weeks of holiday left! like wth time really flies.
BUT HEH (whispers secret)
-Pink&Black
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6:18 AM
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
my room ((:
ohoh! did i mention how much i love this room of mine. haha
okay, its painted pretty pink :DD and there's many soft toys in my room, my fav obviously placed on my bed. some on the book shelves and some under my bed HAHA
the cupboard's pinkish beige (haha it was quite pink when we first moved in and fixed it, but i guess the colour sort of faded over the years.)
my bed's pretty, white with roses prints at the end. with a touch of gold here and there. and the bedsheet's an awesomeee pink ((:
there's this hugeeeeeeeeeeee(really) study table cum bookshelf which takes up a bit too much space in my small room. and its very tall too. but its woody and i like, add to the whole effect (:
oh, and of course, my lovely pink hello kitty lamp which has been my best companion throughout those days when i had to burn my midnight oil. plus, bookshelf so obviously there's books.
and yes, my room's small. small and cosy ((:
the main light has a star, sun and this planet glow-in-the-dark around it.its very nice when im about to sleep and the whole room's all dark and stuff, and when i stare at the ceiling i will see it glowing beautifully.
the floor's granite(? i think) and its very nice and cool when you step on it
my room's nicer with those pretty white flower lights against the pink walls.
but of course, i like the scene outside my room the best. esp when its raining. (haha thats why im talking bout my room now).
its pretty too when at night.the thick curtains hide the lightning and the day curtains just add to the mood.
when you look out, you will see this pretty tree around 2 1/2 storeys high.i love this tree ever since i moved in. it keeps flowering all year round. and what i like most, the flowers are all pink ((:
the tree beside it doesnt really flower all year round but it have nice white flowers (:
then there's this stretch of road, which is actually from the main road to the carpark. i like this road too, its not grey/black, but its red (:
at the extreme left hand side (when you look out the window) you can see the next block, but a small part of it, just the windows of the living room.and then there's the shelter cum drop off point, which is facing the forest.
the forest is the best. its just so peaceful, the greenery and fresh air makes me smile always (:
you can see some really tall trees towering above the rest.
yeah, last time there used to be these bunch of banana trees and its quite clear from my room but now its blocked by some other trees. ):
so when you stare at the forest, you will just naturally tend to look at the sky. the sky's always pretty, everywhere, wherever you go.
then, i will try imagining things, like what the clouds look like, like when some clouds look like a human face, i might be thinking its ppl from heaven looking down on earth. or when its the shape of an animal, i might be thinking the poor animals died and are now in heaven.
the sky's the loveliest during the evening cause the colours somehow seem to be able to blend in with the trees nicely and there's a beautiful gradient.
and of course, there's always the wonderful wind. it ALWAYS so windy in my room here, you dont need to switch on an aircon when you sleep at night.
you can always smell the fresh air here, this natural sweet lingering smell. i love the smell after it rains.
and yes, the lighting at night is just awesome. cause the streetlights are orangey so at night, if you look down at the road, it just seems so lovely/emo.
like you feel so tempted to take a walk down it, or just sit at the curb writing a poem, and yes, camwhore there.
and i love it how its always so peaceful and quite here, thanks to the forest that blocks off the noise from the main road. the occasional sounds of vehicles passing by is nice too, like it gives you this sense of comfort.
yes, so i love my room this much, cant blame me im always in my room most of the time (: this is what i really call an almost perfect, non-materialistic home (((:
-Pink&Black
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2:01 AM
Im afraid to lose her cause i know she wont lose me
i still find that sentence sweet (:
haha hell noooooo, its quoted from M ((:
THIS IS GOING TO BE A VERY VERY RANDOM AND SUPER LONG POST YEAH. READ ON IF YOU WISH TO. HAHA
ita raining since i woke up and its a nice gooooood feeling.
i got awakened by my mum's call, asking me if its raining and to bring in the laundry. ://
and so, i was abandoned alone at home cause mum and sis went swimming ): and sis went out to work. and obviously dad too.
haha as usual, i started the day by watching the tv, stoning and listening to all the random songs in my playlist.
attempt to cook for myself. err didnt really work well. my crabmeat turned out to be a bit too crispy and my fries...haha it turned out BLACK :/ but still its a good meal yummm
okay, now everyone's back alr :/ (but obviously not dad)
im eating most of my sis's McFlurry and hmmm never knew it tastes so good, this gooooood ((:
and i realised its been a loooooooong time since i last wrote a poem.
it was really my hobby last time, back in my p5/p6 days and in my lower sec days. i rmb the times in lower sec when lessons are so boring that i will pick up a pen and be so absorbed in writing a poem, that everything around me will be totally blocked out (oh dear, quite explains why my results back then weren't so fantastic. haha)
and i was looking through my stuff and i found this in one of my files:
There's nothing much to give you,
And nothing much to say.
But all this time i wonder,
How things turn out this way.
Here i pen down my thoughts,
Of how i really feel,
All these are just too much,
It's like its just not real.
Starting out as strangers,
And then we became friends,
It all zoomed by too quickly,
And here our friendship ends.
You really made a difference,
Throughout these past few years.
So now, instead of getting closer,
We end up shedding tears.
Lots of Love,
Hanisah.
haha, it was short but i still like it anyway. haha for those who dont know me, i WAS a quiet and emo girl back then. nooo, not that hardcore emo kind. just like to think alot, stare outside the window and let my thoughts run wild, prefer to be alone AT TIMES and yeahh, listen to emo songs while writing poems.
and i realised, i didnt really write anymore poems this yr, except for a couple that i can rmb or so. but then so, both of them are mly poems. i miss those times. yupp, this is what sec3 life does to you.
your world revolves around teachers, lessons, extra classes, books, tests, exams, mugging etc etc
and yes, i think im going to lock up this blog soon. cause errr, yeahhh.
good for those who knows my password, or for those people who knows how to break in.
oh maybe just move to xanga/lj
oh btw, i have an lj account, a diaryland account, myspace account, xanga account. but haha, dont know what happened to all of them. i totally forgot all the usernames and passwords. i cant even rmb the url to those other blogs :/
thats why i still remain faithful to blogger all these while (:
and, im multi-tasking now. doing math at the same time :/
but hey, im at my fav topic now, direct&inverse variations :D
haha tell me im slow, i was planning to leave my math hmwk for the last actually :/ buttttttttttt, i have no mood to write lit essays or el essays.
and i nearly forgot i still have mly and bio to complete ://
haha i better get back to doing my hmwk now (:
-Pink&Black
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12:45 AM
Church;
we're so alike, NOT. haha. but i still love her anw.
OMG bad influence of moves from the biggy sis :0
this was early this yr. graduate's tea.
ahhhhh we all look so diff in less than a yr
HAHAH hilarious. book that my sis borrowed. HAIYOH so true
im such a nice sis to actually bring my sis to her swimming lessons
i look like a freaking maid here. GAHH. but my sis looks good here haha so i shall still upload this pic
OMG my EIGHT YEAR OLD sis actually asked me to take this emo pic of her. goshh whats becoming of this world
my opposite love!
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